Will what I fear come true?
The inability to deal with uncertainty is what keeps people in the loop of OCD. You don’t want to risk your fear coming true so you can’t let go. What if it comes true?
You just performed a compulsion. Temporary relief. But you know what else happened – your OCD became stronger. You fed the beast another piece of your life, will and soul. Its grip on you became stronger and you are now back to square one with anxiety consuming your every living moment.
You suffer from OCD. Nothing will happen if you don’t listen to what it says. I repeat. Nothing. Actually…
You will recover. That is really something isn’t it?
If you don’t listen to OCD and refrain from giving it anymore of your time and thoughts it will vanish into thin air and you’ll get your life back. What I am describing in few words is actually a laborious and hard healing process that will take some months but it is worth it to get your life back on track.
Before giving in to OCD again just know that you are feeding it again and that it will never be enough. OCD took a lot from you and you are still giving it more.
Start doing ERP today and cut off the symbiotic chord between you and your obsessive-compulsive disorder. It will hurt you and threaten you. It will skyrocket your anxiety, but your brain will finally understand that there is no danger and no more obsessive thoughts will be sent your way.
I wish you all the best and I know you can do it!